I urge you to reconsider this statement, if you are indeed sincere about practicing zen buddhism.
You say you are not "feeling" this. What, exactly, do you mean? If you were sincere, I implore you . . . please post a reply.
You see, it doesn't matter whether you, I or anyone else is "feeling this" or not. GOD is GOD, like another poster said JESUS IS LORD, and whether or not anyone "feels it" or not will not change that fact.
Should GOD change Himself, or the Message of Salvation, so that everyone can "feel it"? If HE did, then HE wouldn't be GOD then, would HE? I mean, really . . . who needs a god that feels intimidated by people, so that he has to do what people say?
Now GOD loved you enough to give His Only Begotten SON fo you, to pay a dabt that you couldn't pay. Think about that for a while and see if you "feel" it.
Whether or not you were sincere, you have our attention. If you did this just for attention, then know this . . .
You didn't have to do that. You had GOD's attention and His full love from before you were born.
But GOD won't share you, or anyone else, with buddha. GOD will be GOD alone, so we implore you, I entreat and beg you, to turn back to HIM.
No matter what anyone "feels" who practices sen buddhism, what good is it if you go to hell at the end of your life? Buddha can't save you . . . . follow Buddha and how ever you "feel" you will wind up in hell right along with him. Buddha couldn't save himself; what can he do for you?
If you want to talk more about this, contact any of the moderators or post again. But don't stop seeking the True and Living GOD because you aren't "feeling" this. GOD loves you, and so do we on the LGM site.
Be Blessed