ive probly been practicing and praying for about a year now, and nothing has really changed, i feel like giving up. i mean i really do read every post about music theory, and i try to memorize chorded songs and i practice at my church for hours. and the worst part is, for you who are COGIC, the minister of music of my church is Dr. Curtis Lewis, who was inducted in the Gospel Hall of Fame, and he is the Dean of Music for the National COGIC, he is basically the best piano player i know, BUT HE WONT HELP, he says he will, and to "be at the church at 10:00 am" and i go, and he always says ohh, im soooo busy, and the 2 times he did teach me a little bit all he did was holler and scream at me cuz i was doing it wrong..... i really really really have a strong passion to play the piano, but i feel as though, time is running down, cuz im only 16, but there're people out there who are 12 and are playing for churches, i really feel like giving up, what do i do, i mean i pray about this, and it seems like God forgot about me, i know i know, God doesnt work in time, you gotta wait on the Lord and be of good courage, trust that he'll make a way, but i dont wanna hear that right now, in my situation i need the Lord's help now.... what do i do?