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am in the same boat. I am learning patient, focusing on technique (not speed) which will lead you into frustration, building up the correct muscle memory, reading, scales (by notes) not shape, understanding how the scales/modes ect... fit in the theory. A diligent student whom practice the right things will prevail. Blessings.
Well put...
FYI, my instructor told me that learning shapes is not a bad thing. You should learn both.