Hi everyone,
I am so excited to find this BB and LGM website that I don't know what to do. A million things are going through my head right now; I hardly know where to start.
I feel a constant pull, desire, intense craving to play the organ. When I hear organ music especially from a Hammond I almost go insane. This has been going on for years to the point that sometimes I can't even concentrate on my full-time job. I am a very amateur player that has played for a small storefront church, home-based church, etc. I can only play very simple chords in the key of G, C, and F with no fancy runs or anything like that. However, no matter where I go people keep asking me to play and I keep getting offers to play. I feel embarassed because I think and know how I really sound and what it should sound like. I have had no formal training or lessons and am not good with theory per se (tend to learn more of hands on, individual instruction of you do it - then I try. That way I see the instant results and am very tactile.)
I feel frustrated because I feel like I am wasting a calling and a gift because the desire is so intense and I have wasted so much time but it just never seemed to manifest. I tried taking lessons once from a local music store, but that was very disappointing and not long enough. They were only 30 minute lessons once a wk. I am so skeptical about buying CD's/DVD's lessons and tutorials etc. because I have done that in the past and they were scams or totally useless because it was people showing off (some of which was great to listen to because they only intesified my craving) but did not get me any closer to my goal of learning to play.
I live in West Palm Beach, Florida and if there is anyone who can relate to what I am going through and the utter frustration but intense pleasurable agony I feel (only someone with an unfilled dream can know the feeling I am trying to put into words), please help. I feel like I will never be content or satisfied until I can achieve this - and I feel like God is saying get off your backside - I can feel him turning up the heat if you will and he has also been giving me dreams of playing. I am willing to come to you for lessons and would love to have a mentor.
I know I have rambled and this is very long - I just needed to get some of it out. There is more but I will hold off for now.
Thanking you in advance for any help, suggestions, or if anyone can relate please respond.
In His service
