As someone else posted, brother, everyone has to make their choice.
But look at it this way. If you had never been in love, you wouldn't know what love was the next time it presents itself, right?
I may be wrong, but I really think this happens to so many people. They are so afraid of being hurt they never really fall in love, so they don't really know what love is.
Spend some time with GOD, and HE will heal what is hurting. And HE will heal it before the future Mrs CM comes your way, so she would be compared to another . . . . she will be accepted and loved for who she is.
Be Blessed,
BBoy