I know how this is and can be, trust me many musicians have been in this situation before, but God has a plan for us all but we have to wait. Be patient, and your time will come. T-Block also mentioned that there are other places that you can express your talens at, and I would also recommend that you talk to your pastor, the minister of music, and see if all of the musicians can share some of the playing time. While everything is being resolved, continue to work on your craft, because enevthough GOD gives us talents, we must continue to work on them and improve. Your time will come, but you must be ready.