hey.. thanks everyone for all that you wrote... i really almost cried from reading it..
mendoza i really dont understand why you apologized, really you did nothing wrong...i didnt take anything the wrong way..
its just that after playing last sunday and playing so badly i began to wonder what was happening...excuse me if this gets long which i think it will..
well i played really really badly..messing up everything i wanted to do.. i couldnt do anything right... and i got mad at myself and i didnt know what was happening... so after church i was in my "not happy mood" and my girldfriend asked me what was wrong and i told her about the drums.. and she was like oh it sounded fine to me, your the best! and i was like nooo way :[
im playing terrible.. my arms and legs are getting locked up after only about 20 minutes of playing... i used to be able to go an hour like it was nothing..
oh well there is something i left out.. something i did about a year and a half ago.. well when i was praying for me and my girlfriend.. i really wanted to be sure i was going to be with her forever you know.. i told God, i dont care what it takes but i want her in my future, to be my wife.. i told him take whatever you need to take from me but i want her.. i told him if you ha to take my talent then take it.. i would trade it for her..
i dont know guys.. i think thats it :[
maybe it was a dumb move.. a desperate move lol, i was pretty desperate for her
ive never shared that with anyone before so.. i dont know.. its probably that.. i think im losing it more and more every time i play..