Greetings New Family!!
I was doing some reflecting on my walk with the lord and I paused when I came to my giving.
I noticed that I usually don't give my offering (I know, I am cursed with a curse...). Let me explain. On Sunday morning I prepare my tithe and offering envelopes during Sunday school and put them in my bible. During the prayer over the offering, I take said envelopes out and place them on top of the organ, nodding to a deacon, usher, my sister, or to anybody who's not praying and just looking around haphazardly. They nod back, knowing what the deal is. After the prayer, we jam and I become totally oblivious to the fact that my envelopes are still on the organ until after the preached word. I end up giving after the service however, it does not feel the same as being part of the group experience. Weeknight services are even worse. Since there are no envelopes on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday nights, I have to put cash on the organ. Whether the spirit gets high or I don't communicate well enough, the money is still there after service. When I see it I begin to realize that I need gas, or my daughter needs some new ballet slippers and before I know it, my money is back in my wallet/pocket.
I want to give at the same as everybody else, but I don't want to risk missing my blessing by any means.
Has anybody had this dilemma? If so, can you share your recipe of how you got through, that I may also taste the fruits of victory.