Vonne -
Last year, I lost my job and then everything spiraled out of control for me. My water got turned off, and because of my pride, I wouldn't ask for help. Then I lost my condo, then my self esteem and confidence came tumbling shortly after. I questioned God and was all upset because I had the selfish approach to all of it. I was in bad shape.
I said all that to say that you are not alone. You may already know it, but God has huge plans for you. A year ago, I would not have imagined the increase that God would give me. I am praying for you, because I know its hard. I know its hard to separate night from day in these situations. I am a living testament to what God will do for you. I believe God will hold everything together for you. Just continue to trust and believe. God's got it!
Hit me up on FB any time. Call me to vent, scream, cry, or just to talk. I have been there, and it was more fruitful for me to have someone to talk to than to have people open their wallets (though I gladly took their cash LOL).
This too shall pass. <3 you girlie!