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Gospel Instruments => General Music Hangout => Topic started by: youngstarter on July 21, 2008, 09:55:24 AM
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Ok I have been going through some stuff and I know I just need to get it out and ask some advice on what and how to go about doing certain things. I've been M.O.M of my church since I was about 15 or 16...cant really remember, but now I'm 19 and since then I have matured alot in my playing and also in my passion for both the organ and keyboard.
But since I was 15 and I took over the position I've been playing with mainly the same drummer and praise team because right now it is just me and him and the praise team. It's been alright and I've been handling it. I mean I was just a beginner and was just barely getting by on the services but now that i have learned and been practicing hard and I can say right now i'm decent on both the organ at this point. This as you all know comes through practice, practice, practice!!!
Last year we went and started/resurrected a choir and even though it was a very difficult start in the beginning we still eventually got through and i mean we still have a alot to work on but they are pretty good so far. But yesterday i dont know what happened but i mean church started as usual and even through the opening song like its not what I want to hear. I mean i'm sure you all know what i'm talking about when you as a musician/mom need to hear a certain sound coming from your praise team and your musicians and if it isnt where your expectations are you just stuck right there like C'MON GUYS!!! >:(.
Well this is what happened, the whole service I was trying as hard as I could to bring everything up on point and like the more i tried/ the more i prayed things would work right it seemed to get worst and worst. Right now i'm not content in the praise team and the musical aspect because I believe hey if i'm going to practice to harness and bring my gift where it should be why isnt everyone else? Like I dont know if i'm over reacting or what but i mean its been going on for about a year, i've been feeling this and when I go to the praise team and ask them about practice they sort of brush me off like ok and...?
I take this very seriously and I feel and am afraid of if someone was to come in from the outside to church ( first thing is praise and worship ) and listen to how not on point we are and end before the sermon ( which is the most important part ) they leave out I thinking "oh they need some structure there with the praise and worship" and to the point where they say oh i'm not coming back to that church ever again. I dont want yall thinking that i'm saying everything else isnt important but music, its just as M.O.M. i'm sort of taking the responsibilty and everything for EVERYTHING that goes on wheter it's my drummer, choir, praise team, anything related to me where i'm in charge. And I think my passion and everything just came in yesterday and after service I had to fine my own little secret place and I was so overwhelmed I just had to let it out and cry.
I mean I would do anything for this church, I would literally give anything, even my last dollar ( which I have already ) and I just want everything to run smooth. I'm the PK so hopefully in the end I want to eventually become pastor because I mean I live, breath, eat this church, instead of going outside and stuff as a kid I was in the church either cleaning, playing and all that, IT'S REALLY ALL I KNOW ABOUT because all my family is about if they not ministers or pastors then they still in the world. But I mean I dont want to go to my father because I know he would do anything to make me happy and I dont want him to make them or kind of force them to come and practice, I just want them to freely come.
Its just I'm out of ideas and I dont know where to start to try and let them know how I feel about this. The only one that knows and saw how messed up yesterday I was is the drummer and he did try his best to give me my pep talk but I dont really think they understand because I've tried to speak before about this issue and like I said they kinda brushed me off ( maybe my age, or they dont have time ) but if thats the fact then I know I can replace at least the praise team because I have others that want to be in and WILL actually come and practice. But I dont want to step on any toes or anything. ?/?
Sorry about the rant lol I just had to get this out...I feel SOOOOO much better now.
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It's o.k. man, I understand exactly how u feel. The praise team at my church don't want to come to practice either, but they always complain to me about singing the same songs every Sunday. The choir complains that they don't sing enough, but I told them they don't practice enough. Anytime they show up for practice, it's ATTITUDE CITY.
Just hang in there man. Believe it or not, not everyone wants to get to that level of excellence. Some are just happy getting by with whatever. The only thing u can do is keep praying and keep doing what u doing. Eventually, some may come around and realize the vision you have. Whatever u do, don't quit, keep going.
Maybe this is all just one big test to see if u will "crack under pressure". Don't give the enemy the satisfaction, u keep going in Jesus' name. You and your church are definitely in my prayers man!!!