well i did play today, i didnt quit. i had a bit of that "i told u so" spirit though, but i didnt respond to it. the organist was late, the one who they rely on as they ignore us other musicians, but the P&W team had to start with only the drummer. (i always take my time to play cause i stall for the organist, not cause i need him but they never seem to stay in one key if its just the bass playing and that drives me crazy). but all in all, i did learn the choir songs (they do the same thing) but one of them they didnt even sing. i didnt sweat it and went on as best as i could.
i get what u sayin browntree. but the Holy Spirit does come in, but i think the main part of the problem is that people dont develop themselves in their position. For instance, if God called you into the ministry, u should try to continue to refine yourself to become the best minister u can be. but if u dont, u can possibly be a bad or ineffective minister, but that doesnt mean u arent still called. in crude terms, u just need to step ur game up. (***not referring to you specifically***)
i see as we all talk, i see that the common thing here is that we all want to be better bass players and better musicians. we study under others, share resources and experiences, inquire opinions/critique of or methods and techniques and overalls style, experiment and explore to get what we want out of our equipment, etc. None of us just learn the E-A-D-G, major and minor scale and say "im content" and go no further in our craft, but thats the equivalent of what others seem to do in their roles particularly positions of leadership. And thats when u get all this chaos and disorder happening.
on the plus side, i was able to continue writing a song i been working on. its a song born out of despair. its really touched a few people that have heard it as i was working on it. i just hope most of my songs arent born out of despair, because if so i have a feeling i'll find myself back in this place once again in order to experience and complete the song.