You know, I think at point of our lives we have all been there. BFBT provided great advice for you, but all I can just add is don't give up. It's so easy to let all those distractions and excuses get in the way of you studying the Bible, going to church, ect., but you've just got be strong. What I've found out time and time again is though you may ask God for something and it doesn't come or that answer isn't there when you expect it to be, we loose faith and do our own thing. You've got to be faithful, patient and hang on in there (I know it's so cliche, but it's true) and He will come through, many time in ways don't even expect. Don't loose faith in yourself and in God, and know that those of us here at LGM will be lifting you up in prayer. I pray that you will get through this.